Yeah! I am back on track!!!

Today I weighed in. Someone I know let me know of the "Mom" Weight Watchers Meeting that you can bring your kids too. So, this morning, I took the three youngest with me. We didn't stay for the meeting, since I know I wouldn't be able to get anything out of it with a one, two and three year old by my side. However, the best part was weigh in. I lost 6 pounds. YEAH! Now, I have lost a total of 16.6 pounds. Not as much as I would've liked, but I think I am still capable of losing 100 pounds this year, if I am very careful to stay on track!!! Anyway, it feels good to have success once again, and feel that "my head" is back in the game once again. I felt most of this last month I was derailed!!! Also nice, I am down a pants size!!! That always feels better!!! I better work hard though, only 305 days. Those 60 days have FLOWN by!!! I only have about 5 of those left. So, if I lose 16 pounds every 60 days, then by the end of the year, I will have lost 80 pounds. So, I guess I am not exactly on track. I have got to work harder to reach that goal.

Today Show Appearance

Guess who was on the Today show this morning for their fitness piece? It was Leslie Sansone about power walking. It was great to see Al and all the crew power walking!!! It reminded me of how great power walking is and how easy it is to do indoors. Luckily, I got a great power walk at the zoo yesterday going up all the hills with all three kids in the stroller. Every time I do her workout I feel good. So, I guess it is time to get going again. I have been more active since starting this weight loss kick, but I would like to make it daily rather than 2-3 times a week.

Weigh-In

It was time to weigh in, and I have gained 3.8 pounds. I have mixed feelings. I am mad at myself for my choices of the last month, but another part of me says it could've been much worse. Bottom line, I am up for restarting the challenge. I just need to hustle, be SERIOUS on counting points and writing down all the food I eat. I need to track like noone's business. That is what is going to help me the most. It is time to crack that whip on myself. I am actualy excited for starting anew---once again. This is a war, I have clearly lost many battles, but I do want to win the war!

Mind Tricks!

Talk about thinking errors galore swirling through my head at the moment! (In relation to food that is---well, I am sure they relate to other things too, but forget about it, with the food and weight loss, it is going CRAZY!)

So, even though I didn't want to, and had lots of faulty good reasons floating through my head of why not to go, I did go work out today. Well, I went, but with all 3 kids 3 and under being "fun", and my lack of stamina, not much got done. However, I did get out, do a little, and that is a success for today.

It is amazing the lies we tell ourselves. I thought after eating whatever I wanted in Vegas, when it was time to buckle down again, it would be totally easy, as I would have gotten all my cravings out of the way. WRONG!!!!!! It has been so much harder. That is why I am not so smart with food. It is only common sense that after binging, and lack of self-control, being in control of oneself will be harder. But no, I fall prey to that thought that "if I get it out of my system, than it will be so much easier" when I get going again. Amazing the lies we tell ourselves. It has been rougher than ever, and my motivation is lacking tremendously. It was great to read Lanette's blog (found on the left). It was very motivating. She suggests having a plan after your relapse. She said you need to realize the day after you have made bad choices, is harder. Sounds obvious, and has been true for me, but I have always told myself the opposite. I think that is what makes it so easy to justify having a "bad" day or weekend.

Also motivational, Bon's blog. She compared weight issues to smoking and other habits. She made some very good points. All these have been helpful to me in rectifying my thinking errors and put me back on track. I don't think I am back on track yet, but I can feel my desire to give up diminishing. So, I thank everyone for their help and motivation. It has made a big difference in my world today. I have to say, that is what makes me appreciate the blogging and technology worlds. So much to offer. Thanks! Check out Bon's blog and her posting: Confessions, Consumption, and Counterfeits.

Time to pay the piper!

Crap, I am totally dreading weigh in. It is finally time to be accountable for my choices. It is going to be bad, the question is How bad? Anyway, I will let you know when I weigh in, my scary results. There is nothing better than public humiliation to get you back on track. Seriously, it really does help. I would have probably given up at this point if it weren't for feeling like this is in the universe, and I have to work to keep my goal with that universe. I am going to be drinking lots of water and trying to do my best to be SOOOO careful with my points to make up some! Now it is just getting back up and moving in the right direction. It's rough. I won't lie!!!

What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas?

Somehow I don't think this phrase applies to weight!!! What a shame!!!

Taking a Break!

OK, my husband and I are going to Vegas this weekend without kids, and so I am taking a break from Weight Watchers for the weekend. My husband is also (from his diet). We don't get many times alone without kids and we totally want to live it up with no pressure---especially FOOD! I just felt I should disclose that I am not just falling off the wagon, I am jumping off with a little excitement! I am sure as I jump back on the wagon on Monday---HEAVIER, it will be harder than ever. Perhaps I will regret my choice then, but for now, I couldn't be more excited. Sorry, these are my true feelings. I know, at this rate, "fat girl" may not be gone by next year. No, I am determined. I have had a lot of crazy events in the last 2 weeks (a trip to Texas, my brother and his wife coming to town--we hadn't seen them for a year and a half, and now this Vegas trip! So, I have known this would be a rough time!) Till next week, see ya' and don't follow my poor example. I am also going to be forgetting about the quote below for this weekend! I am feeling a tad defiant and resentful of the food thing. Can you tell?

A positive quote to motivate!

What you eat in private, shows up in public!!!

Struggling!!!

As my intuitive friend Jen must've picked up on----I am lacking in motivation at the current moment. The food thing has gone from bad to worse. This week has been full of BAD CHOICES! And the scary thing is we are only on Wednesday. On Sunday I had way to much fun at a family dinner with my brother and his wife! You may have seen the Valentine's cupcakes from Costco? Yeah, I couldn't resist. Never mind all the "normal" food I ate that I shouldn't have eaten! Then, on Monday, I had a night with my great friend Angie. We had a blast, and I really enjoyed the food too much! We went out to eat, and I did not hold back! Then, last night we went to Sweet Tomatoes. How bad can that be? Well, just trust me, I really made some poor choices. So yeah, three really bad food days in a row. So, today, my goal is to change that up, and really make good choices.

I did go to work out on Monday, but noone was there. Today, I did go work out, although I was so tired, everything seemed so much harder. Maybe it is all that food I shouldn't be eating! Anyway, I am struggling, but I am going to do well today. That is my current endeavor. I feel like someone in AA. I am going to be working on things hour by hour around here. That is all I can do right now, day by day!

However, I am proud of my man!!! He has been doing his own weight loss program (not Weight Watchers) and he has lost 20 pounds. That is motivating to me. He encourages me so much. Grateful for that!

This Week Summed Up!

Well, I had some successes and failures this week. A success: that I went to work out twice this week. Yesterday I did a "3 Mile" walking workout! So, that is an improvement for me. However, I did make many food mistakes this last week. So, the final result: I lost .2 pounds. Yeah, that is 1/5 of a pound; a lot like last week. However, I am grateful I haven't gained, especially considering our trip to Texas last weekend!!! Anyway, glad to be starting a new week. It is always good to start fresh!!! (Although our romantic "alone" trip to Vegas next week may prove challenging!)

Meet the Chins!

That is me and "the chins" on the far left! This is a picture with me and some of my cousins!!!
OK, so one of my biggest pet peeves of being fat are "the chins." Yes, I am referring to my plural chins. I love to take pictures, so in order to get a picture without "the chins" I get to try to attempt to take pictures at weird angles. Unfortunately, this is not always possible, so on days like today, "the chins" show up! Well, I guess they are always around, but I like to live in denial that they exist. Pictures like this remind me of "the chins" and remind me of my need to lose that weight THIS YEAR! I will be very excited one day to be able to take a picture and see only one chin. After we work on the "chins" we can start to work harder on the rest of that package!!!

Laura, the Maximizer!

Well, I went to the church exercise group today. What is interesting to me, is I don't get all that much done due to the interruptions from my kids, however, in participating in some exercise, it makes me want to be good with food for the day as to not "ruin" any exercise I have done. (Probably since it is such a rare event to exercise in my world!) Anyway, it has been good to exercise today. I feel like my mind is in a better place; feeling more motivation to continue on this weight loss journey!!! So, I guess sometimes my need to "maximize" can be a good thing; especially when it comes to exercise!!! I think I may still pay a heavy price for "my sins" at weigh in, but hey, at least I am feeling back on track!

BTW, Jenny, thanks for your comment, it helped me feel more motivation too. It is definately hard to stay on the wagon. Knowing other people are also struggling, somehow makes it easier to get going again.

Naughtiness!

I totally gave in to sin today!!! At the book club I went to, they had the darn best cinnamon rolls of all time. They were homemade, soft, sweet, and to die for! I know, it is absolutely frightening how much enjoyment comes from food for me. Anyway, I ate one and a half of the cinnamon rolls and then had a couple little valentine cookies. Really bad choices, I know. So, now I have to make up for it. I guess no food for the rest of the day? Is that how you make up for bad choices? For sure I have to go to the exercise group at the church tomorrow. I think after being "bad" in Texas for the weekend, I am having a hard time getting back to my weight loss program. We are also going to Vegas for the weekend in 2 weeks, and I am taking a weight loss break then, so I am sorta' telling myself lies, like I shouldn't try right now---as I will just be naughty again in 2 weeks. But, that is why I do need to be so good right now, to be able to be a little bad in Vegas. My mind is full of food thinking errors. Let me tell you. I have got to get on the good bandwagon again!!!!! I need some motivation. A picture of myself or looking at myself should be motivation enough, but no, that is not enough for me. The pull of good treats tends to be stronger than motivation to lose weight right now.

Weigh-In!

Well, due to our trip to Texas on Thursday, I weighed in a little earlier than usual, on last Wednesday, January 30th. Luckily, I did lose a little weight, but unfortunately it was just that----A TINY BIT! Last week I only lost .40 of a pound.

Anyway, I don't think my trip to Texas helped me in the weight loss arena; we shall see how bad off I am later on this week. I have to be REALLY good this week to make up for the bad weekend. I need to drink lots of water and my brother and sister-in-law suggested a fruit flush today. Basically by eating all fruit, your body flushes out some of those bad choices from the weekend. I did eat grapefruit, but I didn't have any other fruit in the house--so wasn't able to do that completely. Anyway, I have almost been doing this Weight Watchers thing for a month and am happy to have lost 14 pounds in that time. My goal is to lose 10 pounds a month on average. I have got to get motivated to be really good, and really need to add exercise to my regiment!!! I have the tapes, I am just avoiding doing the walking. Tomorrow I HAVE to do it!